Way Back When I have been conditioned. With many years of training under my belt, my consistent reaction has become habit. When the familiar number flashes on my phone, like Pavlov’s dog, I react the same way each time. I hold my breath, my heart rate races and I answer the phone with fear and trepidation. It began when Ian…
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Surprise!
Do you like surprises? Are you sure? Always? If you asked me I would answer, YES, of course. I’ve been on both the giving and receiving of big surprises. They can be so fun. But lets face it… there are surprises and then there are SURPRISES. I’ve had this niggly feeling deep in my gut that I don’t want anymore…
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The Flimsy Promise of a Mask
Way back when Halloween 2000 was memorable. Ian, 4 1/2, was recovering from his 2nd brain bleed and his first major brain surgery. His motivating goal was to be “well enough” to return to preschool for the annual halloween parade. I grew up in a family that valued homemade. A Walmart princess or super hero did not pass the…
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A Cement Wall and the Flailing Woman
Recurring Dream Ever since I was in grade school I’ve had a recurring dream. The particulars in my dream change somewhat but the basic premise is always same. I’m not where I’m supposed to be and I’m completely and fearfully unprepared. The dream made it’s debut when I was probably 10 and our bus stop changed locations. No longer was…
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Surviving the Wilderness — Stop, Drop and Roll
Adventure I love adventure. For me, scary, uncertain, on the brink kind of adventure is the best. Sky Diving — check. Scuba Diving — check. Trekking to the Uhuru peak of Mt Kilimanjaro — check. Determined to milk it for everything it was worth, I was the college back packer who stayed in Europe long after her classmates returned home. …
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